Blue stripes and foam fingers.

Today i had my first debate experience and let me just tell you this, i did horribly terrible!! like really really bad that I am most likely to be socially dead. Right after that experience my mood instantly went from happy to depressed. Like my gosh I was THAT affected by the whole experience, i was not in the mood to talk and be friendly. I can't even concentrate in class. Like damn it.
 
 I dream of making it in college but as of this day i just don't see myself studying there for 2 years. Im not thinking of quitting school or anything it's just that i feel like i have no purpose at all, i'ts like im not as excited to go to school like im use to. We all would agree on one thing when it comes to school and that is definitely not to study. Well study would come second next to socializing with your friends. Im not being negative but im just expressing how i felt at the moment with all this college stuff. Holiday is less than 48 hours, and i am so indescribably happy. I'm looking forward to this. It's going to be fun, late nights and DVD's! woo! well im more excited to go to KL actually, cause on the first day of school holiday which is on the 19th I will be flying straight to Kuala Lumpur, although i haven't pack any of my stuff yet, will do so after i finish my sociology homework which i have no idea at all on what to write. Seriously i was not even in class half of the time due to debate.

 Oh before i forgot, in case any of you readers are wondering how did my interview went with the public relation prefect went, well i wouldn't want you to waste a few seconds of your life to tell you how terrible it went, but let me just say this, it was fun at first- then from those lips came this few simple words, carefully structured and are well said that totally brought my mood down. Damn it. I just realize being in college made me weak, people's words don't usually bring me down, they fire my desire to be the best.

 But I am determined that, as of this day i will forget all those nasty things that happened to me this past few weeks of college and start getting my head in the game and concentrate on what matters the most. Now!? only now that im motivated to go to school..what a joke, and tomorrow is the last day of school. Perfect timing. I hope i still have determination to move up, up and up and up and up and up and away (lol) after the school reopens cause i need my confidence back.

Yours cheesily,
Mahyuddin.